Question
Here is my biggest question. It's going to take a while to explain so the question will follow the explanation. Backwards, I know but whatever.I am suffering, yes. But not in a way uncommon to most people in the world. And not in a way that is huge or terrible or anything like that. Indeed, I constantly find myself embarrassed and ashamed that such little things have such a big effect on me. I was just reading in Hebrews I think it was chapter 8 and then again in chapter 11. It talks about the faith of people before us and how though they didn't see much fulfillment of their promises, they still had faith that God would be faithful. And then later on in the chapter it talks about the people who were tortured and suffered for their faith and it also talks about our call to holiness.
I guess my question is: why do I go through the things that I go through when it's not doing good for anyone? I mean, supposedly it's ultimately doing good for me, if I allow it to. But even as I type that it's a stretch for me to believe it, just because I feel as if I'm not making any progress at all. I feel like I'm wallowing and failing to be what God wants me to be. And to top it all off, I'm doing it alone. I thought that maybe if I were able to help anybody then it would be worth it. Like if what I'm going through could be an encouragement to others. But I can't even help myself and there's no one else to help. I mean, maybe there is. There's always people to help. Everything I say feels lame or like an excuse. Maybe there's no hope for me...
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nice blog very spiritual. Good idea to write about God !
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