God is able

This morning I woke up early, took a shower, fixed myself a bowl of Cinnamon Life cereal, a cup of coffee, and sat down to read The Word. I reread Psalm 3 because I always need constant reminders of what God has said to me. I'm like that in pretty much all areas of life. I need reassurance. I guess that means I'm a Words of Affirmation kinda person (though I do have tendencies to all of the other love languages as well haha). Anyways, I was still encouraged by what Psalm 3 had to say. I also read Psalm 4 and Psalm 34. I'll be honest, I'm having to refresh myself on what they said because I can't remember exactly. I did write down several of the verses on a notecard though and carried it with me to church lol. Psalm 4:5 says "Offer the sacrifices of righteousness, and trust the Lord. " I thought that verse was pretty relevant, seeing as how I had been so concerned with wanting to DO for God, or in other words, sacrifice, but what He wants is for me to trust Him. I also wrote down Psalm 34: 4,9,17-19,22. It's quite a few verses but the gist of it is that God will hear me, He'll deliver me from my fears, if I fear Him I won't need anything. I love verse 18, which says, "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." I didn't want to admit that this situation crushed me and broke my heart but it did. Once again, I'm not sure why I'm so sensitive or why things affect me so deeply the way that they do but I can't change it. I've tried but it's just not who I am. God must have made me this way for a reason. I loved verse 22 which says, "The Lord redeems the soul of His servants, and none of those who take refuge in Him will be condemned." The devil has been trying to condemn me. Not to hell, because he knows that I'm already saved forever from that. But he's doing the next best thing. Trying to condemn me in my relationship with Christ. Trying to prevent me from experiencing the abundant life that Jesus has for me. But there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:13 says "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." This includes getting through this valley of hurt and disillusionment. It is no longer I who lives, but Christ in me. If Christ lives in me, I am more than a conqueror. I have the power of God Almighty living inside of me. Of course I can overcome this. But it is going to take time for Him to work and to heal me and make me whole. I guess that's the whole theme of this 30 days. To come to wholeness in Jesus Christ. That is my prayer. I know God is able.