Streams in a Wasteland

See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. Isaiah 43:19

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Sarah 5:30 PM No comments
So, this morning I wasn't able to have a long Bible time like I would have liked to. I started but then several things came up. However, I did come across a few verses that I felt very encouraged by.
I've started so many things in my life only to quit or tried to change certain things about myself only to fail. Once this happens it is very difficult to ever want to try again because not trying is better than failing. Or so it would seem. And the devil has just been screaming at me that nothing will ever get better, that I'll always be a failure, that nobody will ever want me, that I should be scared of life and of being a failure. And then I came across Psalm 3:2-4 today. If I would have been alone I probably would have started crying (I tend to do that when I feel the Lord speaking to me). Anyway the verses say,
 2 Many are saying of my soul, 
“There is no deliverance for him in God.” Selah.
 3 But You, O LORD, are a shield about me, 
My glory, and the One who lifts my head. 
4 I was crying to the LORD with my voice, 
And He answered me from His holy mountain. 
I felt (and this is just to paraphrase what I felt in my spirit) that God was saying Sarah, you have all these voices telling you that you can't be better, that you will never overcome the things you are struggling with, that you have to be afraid and you have to be in bondage, that your soul always has to be in torment. But look, I am a shield about you, I am your glory, and the One who lifts your face to look at Me. I WILL DELIVER YOU. I AM YOUR SALVATION. I'll be honest, I have no idea how He is going to do it. I have no idea how I will ever gain confidence and lose the anxiety that I have all the time. But I have to believe that God is willing and able to save me, to lead me to satisfaction, to love me, to never give up on me, and to deliver me! The future doesn't look very bright to me, but I'm going to choose to look past what I think or feel and trust that God will do good to and for me. The last verse of Psalm 3 gives me hope."Victory comes from you, O Lord. May you bless your people."

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